V.J. invites us to respond to her prompt “Unanswerable”. Click the link above for more information.
I’m not bothered by what is
Unanswerable for some…such as, what
Follows when our life on Earth ends.
Faith satisfies me, removes all fear…
My true Home awaits in Heaven.
Faith doesn’t answer every question.
What wearies me, what I find
Unanswerable, is how people can do
Horrific, reprehensible evil to others…
In particular, to their own family, friends.
Faith’s reply: “we live in Adam’s fallen world”.
It disgusts me that abusers offer their
Own past abuse as acceptable reason for
Scarring individuals known, or strangers.
Why do they deserve compassionate
Understanding…some special mercy?
Because my God metes out both mercy
And judgement…and, “His thoughts, ways
Are not as man’s”. (Isaiah 55:8)
I was abused, I didn’t become a serial killer
Or embark on path of any criminal activity.
What continues to stymie comprehension…
The aching unanswered questions in my life:
Why would my mother despise me?
How could my parents devalue me…
Accord me status of servant…rather than
Looking, and seeing a child…theirs…a gift?
I would have done anything for their
Love, but it did not exist.
The church teaches we must forgive
“Imperfect” parents because they have
Their own issues, baggage, wounds.
Response which embittered me: “they did
The best they knew how”. Then, why
Wasn’t my best ever good enough for them?
Different standards, apparently.
I’m waiting to hear that I get a pass for
Remembering them with no affection.
For all of us, God’s grace requires not perfection.
©Ennle Madresan, 2019 ~ All rights reserved.
“For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” declares the LORD. Isaiah 55:8 https://biblehub.com/isaiah/55-8.htm